The search for the Self

This poem was written in the year 2006 when I was lost & confused. I was desperately searching and seeking the answers to life and was utterly frustrated. This poem is a reflection of that search, of that constant seeking and not finding but having hope that someday the answers will come.

8 years later and I have come a long way. I find it incredible how life reveals itself and the answers do come when the time is right. Nothing can be forced, it only happens by grace & grace alone. One can never force a fruit to ripen, it can only happen naturally. So wherever you are in your life, whatever you may be facing, take comfort and know that you are in good hands, that eventually things will come to you and when they do, receive!! 

In search of myself am I,

Looking at every nook and corner,

Searching for the self who is me,

And yet I always seem to be disillusioned.

In search of the truth is me,

For questions constantly creep in my head,

Answers to which I seem never to find,

These truths of life, if only there was a way.

Who am I, I ask myself,

Remove the mask, I tell myself,

Yet one mask uncovers another,

And I am just an actor in this vast stage which is life.

Pretense is the game everybody plays,

A game that has been mastered by all,

A game I seek not to play,

And in the end, I lose out in the game of life.

How do I find thee?

That thou hast for so long seeketh,

A search for which I have an entire lifetime,

This me; my soul shall not rest till it finds itself.

This 'I' is not me,

This identity is never real,

Constantly does it keep changing,

And never is it at peace with itself.

A day will come when this 'I' is truly 'me'

The day which seems to be taking an eternity,

It is in this day that my spirit will awaken,

And I shall be born afresh unto this life.

The masks will lay rest on my feet and rot,

The world will uncover in a divine way for my eyes to behold,

Peace and bliss is all that I shall know,

And that is when I will know that I have found myself.

So I continue my search,

Ever hopeful in the journey ahead,

Never discouraged am I going to get,

Cause a day will come when I will have the answer,

The answer to the most impossible question,

The question which asks "WHO AM I"